this is me
Well its been long i didnt blog or updated it.
I am still me. Chubby or ppl will usually call me fat but im still cute to the madness.Hurhur. I still protect life and property and prevent and detect crime.(yeah right) I bought a bikey which is not my first love but I still love it as much as I love my dream bike. and i still have a kitty namely teh2 which is noisy everyday as he is horny and I guess it’s time to sterilised him (and I know i’m noisy.I’m not horny tho.)
Well life turns upside down as I am now not with someone. I seriously don’t know how to make things better. To make everything back as per normal and lead a happy life ahead. I know I’ve made such a disaster decision but I decided it because I don’t want to hurt him more further. It’s driving me nuts nowadays as he can’t control his own feelings. I wanna help but I know I will make things worst. Sometimes I seriously don’t know what to do.It really makes me feel tired. Sometimes I want to just decide to be with him and just continue in this life ahead even though my feelings is no longer there. I know this decision is such an asshole but I simply don’t know what else to do. I’m so worried about him that he is not strong enough. I want him to lead a happy life ahead without me. I know I can’t force him or what so ever. But i’m just..I don’t know. I seriously want things to be as per normal but I know it’s hard. It will take time.
My family been a bit hectic for the past few months. Its been a very very hard time for us. What more with my parents go in and out of the hospital. Siblings have their own problems too which affect all of us. But I know I must stay strong for them. Stay strong for my parents. I always hope that they will get well soon and we lead a normal life like we used to.
well bestie been away for the past few months and we always keep in touch with either msn or skype. Totally miss her to the max as I seriously need a bestie hug. I guess she’s happy there and told me about how she had really really move on and i’m glad for her. I’m so proud of my bestie!
Sometimes I nearly wanna give up. But I know I just need to stand straight and continue with this part of my life. Maybe it’s a test from God to me. I need to go through this one by one.
I just hope that everything will be ok and i’m strong enough to go through in this life of mine. Who says being an adult is fun huh?it’s not ok!
adios.(=
